Oh to Have the Faith of a Child

Ahh... If I could sum up my last Sunday at home, I could only do it with a deep sigh.  I cannot find words to explain what I was feeling, what I was thinking, or what was said.  What I do remember though was during my home church service on Sunday morning, we had somewhat of an alter call.  Our pastor said "I feel like there are some people who are dealing with hurt.  Emotional and spiritual, specifically, but maybe even some physical.  So I'm going to have some prayer teams come forward and if you want to be prayed for then come on up."  The worship band continued to play for several minutes and a number of people went forward to be prayed over.  Well, out of the corner of my eye I catch this little girl tugging at her mom's jacket wanting to go get prayed for.  Let me give you some background on this girl.  She is about 9 years-old, but has the body structure of about a 7 year-old.  She is so fragile looking to the point that I don't want to go near here in fear of accidentally bumping into her.  This girl has a heart condition that makes her this way.  Because of her heart condition, she has to wear a cast around her entire torso so no serious damage is done.  

So, she was tugging at her mom's sweater to go forward to be prayed for her physical condition...  Can we just take a moment and let that sink in?!  Why is it that a child, so immature in comparison to so many people in my church, has so much faith in God?!  It baffles me that she just stepped out, was bold, and knew that her God has the power to heal.  Uh, to have childlike faith!  In Matthew 18 the disciples were talking with Jesus and asked Him who was the greatest in the Kingdom of Heaven and He responded with Matthew 18:2-5 "He called a little child to him, and placed the child among them.  And he said: "Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.  Therefore, whoever takes the lowly position of this child is this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.  And whoever welcomes one such child in my name welcomes me.""  This honestly tears me apart inside.  At times, I feel so dumb because why can't I have faith like that?  Faith to follow my parents around without a question in my mind, faith to hear God's words that are spoken to me and not doubt where they are coming from, faith to step out and lay my life, heck my pride, on the line for the King?  

Confessions,

Chaleigh