"Forever can never be long enough for me
Feel like I've had long enough with you
Forget the world now we won't let them see
But there's one thing left to do
Now that the weight has lifted
Love has surely shifted my way
Marry me
Today and every day
Marry me
If I ever get the nerve to say
Hello in this cafe
Say you will..." (Marry Me by Train)
Ever since I pulled away from my aunt's wedding reception, this song has been repeating in the back of my brain. Oh to have a man to look at me and say "marry me, today and every day", to be so jealous for my attention that he never feels like he's had enough time with me, enough love to last a half century and beyond, oh to be pursued.
It was not until this very song came blaring through my headphones today, thanks to Pandora, that I realized I am loved and I am being pursued. Wait, so this whole time you were being loved and pursued by someone and you didn't know it? That is exactly what I am saying. I'm sure it sounds so cliche`, but Jesus has been reaching for my heart this entire time. While I was busy searching for that man sitting in a cafe, Jesus was patiently yet eagerly following me around saying "ma'am, I found something of yours." While my eyes were so fixated on the desires of the flesh, He was trying to tell me that He found my safety and security that I could only find if I turned around and fixated my eyes on Him.
I am not writing this to say that you need to give up that significant other in your life, and 'fall in love' with Jesus. I'm writing this as a significant reminder to myself to turn around every once in a while; open your eyes Chaleigh! Sometimes the most important things in life are not in front of you. They are not sitting at a table and waiting for you to run up and take as yours, rather they are pursuing you. They have been patiently waiting for the moment you turn around and realized they were following you all along.
Confessions,
Chaleigh
