Looking back on this past two weeks I can confidently tell you that it was an emotional roller coaster. Not in the sense that one moment I was crying tears of sorrow, and the next tears of joy but instead the contentment all the way to the weariness. One might ask how you could have two different feelings, both that lack strong emotion, and come away from it being drained. Honestly, I can't tell you why this happened to me, but I can tell you that God is good all of the time.
These last two weeks I have spent on the softball field starting my journey as a Corban Warrior. Our first trip to California was exciting, exhilarating, and elating. Without a care in the world I was able to focus on the effort that I was putting out. All the while this was happening my homework was starting to slightly back up. After we returned there was three day break to wash our laundry, catch up on homework, and be a college student. The second stretch of our trip was to Columbus, Georgia. This was also an interesting adventure because every time I thought of boarding that plane to fly to the other side of the country I got an overwhelming sense of anxiety that would flood over me. The thought of not being able to be in the classroom, not being on the familiar campus, and not being around the continual support of my hall mates frightened me. I spent a lot of time in prayer asking God to provide the time, resources, and ability for me to get my homework done and still focus on my athletics. Like I mentioned earlier, God is good all of the time, and I only had three assignments and one exam during my week long trip. I guess the reason that I am telling you this is not to complain how awful my situation can be at times, because its not, it is to show you that even through the little things God is good. Pure and simple it, God will provide even for our smallest of needs. Confession, even when things seem extremely difficult and unobtainable, there is always an upside to our situation and we will only find it when we look up to Jesus.
Confessions,
Chaleigh
